What does it take to leave behind everything you’ve ever known? To step into a world of uncertainty, driven by nothing but an inner knowing that there’s something more? For Erin Payne, a 1/3 Emotional Manifesting Generator with the Right Angle Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix, it was a leap of courage that changed everything.
Raised in a tightly knit Mormon community, Erin spent 36 years living a life dictated by strict expectations and deeply ingrained roles. From the outside, it looked like she had it all together—a loving family, a supportive church community, and a clear purpose. But inside, Erin felt suffocated. Every aspect of her life—her voice, her talents, her identity—was shaped by what was “acceptable,” leaving little room for her true essence to emerge.
Her breaking point came when her one source of self-expression—music—was silenced by the community that had defined her entire world. Denied the opportunity to play and create in the way that brought her joy, Erin began to ask herself: “What do I really believe? Who am I when I’m not conforming to others’ expectations?”
These questions led her down the path of radical self-discovery. Leaving the church wasn’t just a physical act; it was a soul-deep unshackling from decades of conditioning. It required her to confront fears of judgment, rejection, and loss. But Erin didn’t just survive—she rose, like the Sleeping Phoenix she was born to be.
In our conversation, Erin shares how discovering Human Design became a pivotal moment in her transformation. Her first reading unlocked a profound understanding of her true nature, giving her permission to reclaim the parts of herself she had buried for so long. It also sparked a deep healing journey in her marriage. By understanding her husband’s design—a Splenic Projector—she was able to honor his needs and gifts while stepping fully into her own role as the energetic engine of their family.
But Erin’s journey didn’t stop at deconditioning her inner world. Together, we worked on aligning her outward expression with her newfound sense of self. Growing up, Erin’s style—like every other aspect of her life—was dictated by strict guidelines, including the Mormon garment she was required to wear daily. Shedding that garment was more than a physical act; it was a declaration of freedom.
Through our work, Erin connected with her personal style in a way that felt authentic and empowering. Clothes became a tool for expression, allowing her to embrace her moods, her individuality, and the beauty she had always been drawn to but had been taught to suppress.
Erin’s transformation didn’t just impact her—it created a ripple effect. Her six children have witnessed their mother step into her truth, and they’ve begun to explore their own unique identities. Her marriage, once constrained by societal expectations, has blossomed into a partnership grounded in mutual respect and authenticity.
Erin’s story is a masterclass in courage, resilience, and the power of radical self-trust. It reminds us that no matter how deeply conditioned we are, we can choose to break free.
Want to Hear More?
Erin’s journey is one you won’t want to miss. Listen to the complete episode of Real Human Design Stories on your favorite podcast platform or watch the full video on YouTube. It’s an inspiring conversation that will leave you reflecting on your own journey of self-discovery and transformation.
Is It Time for the World to See You Shine?
If Erin’s journey resonates with you, I’m inviting you to embark on your own transformative journey. In January, I’m launching an 8-week group program that helps align your outward expression with the deep inner work you’ve been doing.
This program is designed to guide you in shedding the layers of conditioning that hold you back, allowing you to step into your full radiance. It’s time for the world to see you shine your light.
Email me at [email protected] to join the waitlist for this beta launch!
